Im an angry man....

So yesterday, Im riding with my wife, and she said something, and I just blew up. I started going off on everything and anything, and it was unacceptable.

In fact, I wasnt angry at her, or really so much what she said. Im angry at the world, and the fact it keeps using me as a human comode.

Im just a very angry person in general. Its just building and building. The fact that I cant get a good job dispite having a degree, the fact I cant afford to take care of my wife or even myself, the fact that the debt just keeps piling no matter how much I dig out, the fact that Im 25 years old, and probably will be 30 before I can even think about having a house of my own, and the fact that things just keep getting bleaker, not better.

Its overflowing in to my whole entire life, and even worse, its compounding. Im so angry at everything, that its nearly impossible for me to find good with anything. If something has any imagineable bad side, Im going to magnify that 20 times, so its the dominant, or only, quality that I can recognize. Im just waiting for the bad to happen, constantly.

So last night, I decided that Im going to stop being so negative. Being negative is doing nothing but pushing anything good away from me, while not improving my bleak situation at all.